Tuesday, August 25, 2009


i've really gone and done it now.

i got myself tagged by kate for 10 facts about myself, as well as being ORDERED by lacey to complete her quiz thingy. but it's not like i have anything better to do. AND SO...

10 facts about myself:

1. i met bernard lansky, elvis' personal tailor. he is a sweet old man with lots of good stories to tell.


2. one year for halloween, i dressed as bed-in era yoko ono. my cousin beth was john lennon. i wore a nightgown, with a long black witch wig to complete the outfit. beth had a jesus wig/mustache/beard combo and an old man's pajama set.

3. my parents named me erin after a character on "the waltons" because my dad thought she was cute.

4. every year for the past several years, whether it's christmas or my birthday, i get a package in the mail of homemade cookies from one of the dead boys. yes, you read that right: snot-nosed, punk-ass "i waaaaanna be a dead boy!" '77 punk rock DEAD BOY. sometimes he makes his mom's secret chocolate chip recipe, and sometimes it's my favorite pumpkin drop cookies with icing.

5. one time i dated an ex-skinhead. he was a couple years older than me. we met on the internet. he took me on a date to eat-n-park. we broke up because he was ignorant. (surprise!)

6. i have personally known 2 people that have died tragically on the 4th of july and made the news. the first was a girl who used to be my next-door neighbor and we grew up playing barbies together. she got hit in the head by a wayward rocket at a public fireworks display. the second was my little boyfriend in 7th grade. his neighbor, who was a policeman, shot him and his friends for being noisy and blowing off firecrackers in their driveway.

7. i have a tattoo that earns me "free records for life."

8. when i was a child and people asked me what i wanted to be when i grew up, i used to tell them i wanted to be a plumber.

9. i have never been drunk, or smoked a cigarette. once when i was about 12 and my cousin beth and i were home alone, we sneaked into the stash that was left over from our christmas party and tasted peach schnapps and cherry brandy. they were disgusting. we took our plastic cups and hid them outside under a pile of snow to destroy the "evidence."

10. back in the day when they would tour the united states a lot, i used to hang out with the band GOB every time they were around. we traveled anywhere close to go see them and didn't miss a show here in cleveland. some people say they were like the canadian green day -- they were pretty big in their home country. they would come over to eat lasagna we made them or watch "wet hot american summer." we would go out to dinner with them or hang out on sum 41's tour bus when they were touring together (gross, i know). one time in buffalo they gave us passes to watch the show from the side of the stage, and that was really cool. i have the GOB "candy hearts" logo tattooed on my wrist and people always ask me, "who's bob?" they were hilarious, awesome dudes. i miss them a lot.





The Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note completing the 36 "I’ve come to realize."

1. I've come to realize that my chest-size...is still growing, much to my dismay (and josh's joy!). it's really frustrating that so many of my favorite shirts are becoming too short, and i can't fit into a lot of cute stuff to begin with. grr.

2. I've come to realize that my job...was dominating every aspect of my life and making it miserable to LIVE. and no matter how nervous/stressed/upset i am about not working at the moment, it's NOTHING compared to how awful it was making me feel to be there.

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...i have a hard time controlling my rage when someone does something stupid. despite what the law says, i don't think EVERYONE should be allowed to have a license.

4. I've come to realize that I need...to stop being impatient and just let things happen like they are supposed to. everything happens for a reason, right?

5. I've come to realize that I have lost...a lot of years being unhappy and not making much of myself, when in reality i need to start going after what i want.

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when...josh tells me, "someday."

7. I've come to realize that when I'm drunk...or in my case, that when i'm sober i'm that much stronger of a person for being so.

8. I've come to realize that money...plays such a huge part in my life and the lives of everyone around me. and that makes me SAD. sometimes i wish i was just a hobo out in the middle of the woods.

9. I've come to realize that certain people...are never going to change, no matter how many times you give them the benefit of the doubt. that's why it's easier to just dislike everyone. ha.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always...put those i love before myself.

11. I've come to realize that my siblings...have very different ideas about life than i do, regardless of the fact that we were raised under the same roof.

12. I've come to realize that my mom...is still trying to figure out herself and her place in life.

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone...is the only way i keep in contact with a lot of people through texts, yet i still can't bring myself to dial a number and have a conversation. i find it too awkward.

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...i was not as happy with being unemployed as i thought i would be. i wasn't expecting the feelings of guilt and worry that have crept in.

15. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep...i am the luckiest girl in the world to fall asleep next to that guy, and i hope that never changes.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am...wishing that guy would come home from work because i feel like i never have enough time with him. even though we have spent every spare minute together since we first met over a year ago, most of that living under the same roof. is that crazy?

17. I've come to realize that my dad...is much easier to get along with when we are not living together. because we are too much alike with our tempers :)

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook...i have yet to realize anything about facebook, and although i swore i never would i have to admit that curosity is really getting to me while i sit at home alone every day.

19. I've come to realize that today...was pretty much a waste.

20. I've come to realize that tonight...i will be hanging out with my boy and some rock'n'roll, and it doesn't get much better than that. except for the part where other people might be enjoying what i'm doing and are glad that i am.

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow...i need to start making things happen, instead of feeling sorry for myself.

22. I've come to realize that I really want to...take a chance and share things with other people, even though i am taking the risk that they might not care.

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this...has something beautiful.

24. I've come to realize that life...is too short to hold yourself back.

25. I've come to realize that this weekend...we're gonna live it up because it is pretty much the last summer weekend we have. and we're gonna celebrate by hanging out around hot cars, good jams, and FLAME-THROWING CONTESTS! mmhmm.

26. I've come to realize the best music to listen to when I am upset...is the kind that can say what i mean to say, but probably does it better.

27. I've come to realize that #27...oh. ok?

28. I've come to realize that this year...has been one of the most rewarding i have ever known, and it all felt so natural that i can still hardly believe it.

29. I've come to realize that my ex...still has some growing up to do.

30. I've come to realize that maybe I should...find something for dinner tonite so my hard-working boy won't be disappointed in me when he gets home.

31. I've come to realize that I love...being creative and letting it show, rather than bottling up all these ideas in my head.

32. I've come to realize that I don't understand...how people can prefer dogs over cats. curling up with a purring cat and watching how peaceful it looks when it sleeps is one of the greatest things in the world.

33. I've come to realize my past...isn't as ordinary as i sometimes make it seem.

34. I've come to realize that parties...are very uncomfortable for me unless i am the one throwing it. and even then, i'm a total nervous wreck, trying to make sure everything is just so.

35. I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified...of completely trusting someone and giving yourself to them totally, and then having them blindside you.

36. I've come to realize that my life...has so many things to look forward to still, and that even when it seems like i have so much behind me there is still so much left to accomplish.


  1. Um. Those cookies.
    I am gonna need some.
    Maybe I wouldn't hate XMAS so much then.
    Glad you did this!!!!

  2. What an amazing post. Some of your 36 things made my eyes water. I'm new to this blog but I assume crying is not allowed--NO crying on Trash You Up ha ha! I could write a reply a mile long. But this is about you, not me :) I think it's awesome that you are so honest :)

  3. aww thank you, you guys rule :)

  4. "8. I've come to realize that money...plays such a huge part in my life and the lives of everyone around me. and that makes me SAD. sometimes i wish i was just a hobo out in the middle of the woods."

    excellent! me too!

    And I can't believe you get cookies from a dead boy. also excellent.

  5. Okay, I did the 10 things and they're posted :) You'll have to tell me how many people I'm supposed to tag--I'd hate to break the rules! ;)